Friday, May 5, 2017 at 4:21 PM with 12 comment(s)
Time flying too fast and these past few months was super exceedingly hectic for me(or maybe that was my fault for not sane enough to utilize my life time). Never mind, I'm not going to bleat about how incompetent me was throughout the time.
For not dawdling my writing-presence here, I will just pick up directly from the title. To be very extremely frank, studying in Middle East(read: Egypt) was not my first choice, nor my childhood dream. Sceptical, wasn't it? It took me for only one full month to think straightly before I filled in the online application form and another one or half month left to settle up all the documents needed(after receiving the answer of the application) to be sent to the ministry office. Fret not, this is not what I'm going to chunter for forsooth.
I reckon myself lucky enough for eagerly and insistedly on deciding to pursue my bachelor there, and I consider this is the answer for all my parent's prayers- to let me be in the right place, to study the holy courses. I applied for Islamic Studies in Usuluddin. At first, I was given a choice to either staying in Malaysia or pursuing studies oversea. Too bad, so bad, I'm totally in hesitation mood. I was so crestfallen yet downcast everytime I think further about the thing. I kept studying this over and over, trying to find the best decision, and the fact that I urgently need any of my best friends- so that there would be a familiar face when I walked into the place, I almost give up when I knew my best friends couldn't make it. Thank god, I feel relieved after performing Istikharah. I finally can see the way out, and I am really excited to know that I actually have one of my best friend who stick on going to Egypt, too. Alhamdulillah, praises are all to Allah.
*view from the inside of Saudia airplane passenger seat.
Of all the points of why I chose Middle East as my next destination, it is vividly because of my arabic language. I've lost a colossal amount of its vocabulary and I need to start back from the beginning. This is my most pure reason( after lillahi Taala) to study abroad in Egypt. I see Egypt as the better and suitable place for me to improve my lughatul Arabiah. If I was still in Malaysia, I might not even care about this thing. SMH.
Deep down my soul, I dreamed of memorizing( even a bit is a blessing) al-Quran. So, if I study here, I need to memorize 1 juz per year. Don't you think that is a benefit for me? In four years, I've already managed to memorize 4 juz. Even so, I still need your prayer for this endeavour and may Allah ease everything for me. I bet you guys enunciate well about the endless Islamic knowledge spreading in Egypt. That's the another reason of why I am determined to fly here. I want to gain more knowledge, obtain more beautifulness of my deen, Islam. I don't want to wast my time anymore. I've been procrastinating for so long. Pity me. The last reason was maybe a strong feeling of me wanting to appreciate properly the value of family and friendship. There was a saying that If you stay apart from the beloved one, you will be more aware to appreciate their present. *right now I am missing my family so bad.
Anyway, if you are the type of person who seeks for lavishness, think it twice, Egypt was not a right place for you to study into. All you need to have is a strong and fix heart. This place here was just so full of life test and so on. There are two paths to choose to, either you choose to go on with Firaun lifestyle or Prophet Musa's. (please pray for my well being here.) Also, for those who are still not knowing my present here, I am deeply sorry for not broadcasting the news. Me either, cant pinpoint the right reason of not telling you guys about this. Is it about the time-lacking? I'm not sure. Pardon me.
All in all, my journey here has just began. It is accurately 27th day of me living here. And, there's still lot that I need to start and my journey here is still way long. My class is yet to start and I have to attend my language class first before entering the university. Lastly, I'm not going to apologize for the another hiatus because this blog is going to be neglected for a couple of months more(or maybe not) because of the internet hmm. (For Nabila, I still need some more times to completing your tagged post hehehe). Till we meet again.