Safe Place

Best believe, no one could cure me if they tried, because I've been too comfortable hiding as much as I like.

But....

Since you came, I had the strangest feeling of this weight off my chest. My hopes are blossoming again. My days are so much calmer.  It's nice, so nice I don't care if it was only a comforting lie, I still want to believe it.

The idea of the slope of snowy mountain passage, and tall, shivering stands of green fir trees, and a vast spread of forest doesn't really terrify me anymore. The setting sun painted the snow-capped mountains in vivid shades of pink, violet and orange, bright as fire, like I could breathe again. My mind was as still as the snow.

I've found the two-way telephone that speaks the same language. I'd no longer feel the need to pressure myself broken every part of me trying to fit into that pretty, perfect mold. I was half myself before, now I feel so complete.

All the things you did to try to win my love, how did that happen? Are you real? Do you cast a spell on me? I never planned to indulge myself, but you were there. You were there asking about my days. You always acted like an older brother to me, being wise. You make me appreciate my family more, maybe because you always tell me about your lovely mom and dad. You appreciate me and all my progress. Most of all....you're just being yourself, and that's enough. Enough to break through the invisible wall I built around myself. Enough to make me lower the walls I had spent years building.

In your presence, I've found a home, a place where the coldness no longer lingers, and I can simply be me- with you, because you are the best thing that I'll keep. You shone like a star, so brightly but my eyes, they don't burn.

"Love is a mystery and it works in mysterious ways."